How does one say goodbye to someone so dearly loved?
It is so much more painful then one can prepare for and surprisingly lasts longer then one expects. Many times this past year I wanted to call my "Lynny" up (as I jokingly called her) and share something beautiful, a "happening" as she would call it, or something very funny that she would find humorous to burst into laughter over. My mother was one of the funniest women I knew with a sincere honesty that I have found in few. She deeply cared about others, had childlike joy over God's creations and a depth of understanding~ I miss considering. My mother Marilyn with her compassionate, beautiful sky blue eyes with aqua tints reminded me of Glacier's hidden waters. Her love covered such a multitude of human failings~it awed me. I loved making her laugh and finding humor in everyday life together. We were a happy pair seeing life through "rose colored PollyAnna" glasses. Perhaps with some feathers and a little glitter on the rim for fun.
She Is Irreplacable
It is true that you "never get over it" when you loose one you love~ to death~ and we should not presume one will. In time the intervals of overwhelming grief space longer but the crashing waves can be just as engulfing as they unexpectedly knock us to our knees.
If one becomes a cartaker to a terminal patient or longsuffering loved one, it creates a special relationship that is hard to explain. Only those who have suffered this way understand this death march. A companion who walks along the way only to let go and walk alone. The valley's of adversity will not be soon forgotten nor the hand that held you in or through it.
I thank God we have a Lord to call out to and talk to in the lonely hours of despair, to be our shoulder to cry on.
I thank the Lord for my husband being His representative, a loving ear of understanding, a quiet, strong voice of comfort and peace.
This picture was taken shortly before my mother's passing. This is my mother and my friend.
I love you mom and will always miss you.
